05/12/2024 23:45 PM

  I had an interview as an artist and not only I'm quite
  excited but also anxious. I've been so busy with school
  and some other work things that nothing really has hit me yet.
  
  Also had a visit with my psychiatrist today.
  
  I don't remember what I talked about fully. I did talk
  about the interview though. And a spider.
  
  I do remember that she told me she doesn't think I'm
  a violent person, that I don't seem to express my anger.
  Because I tell the things I'm angry about with a smile.
  Do I really smile that much?
  
  I consider myself a really angry thing.
  
  I'm angry, and panicky and upset all the time.
  
  It's so cold lately, but not cold enough. I wish it was colder.
  I get hot with winter clothes, but it's also too cold to wear 
  that, so I end up sweating and feeling groggy. I hate sweat.
  
  I miss my boyfriend.